Now if ur any thing to do with this club I'm sorry I wasn't involved yesterday.
My ankle was sore and I tried to do the warm up but I just couldn't get going so the boss thought it was best not to risk me as il be more needed later on.
I wanted to cry because I was couldn't play but wanted to do something to help out but by being on the (judy dench) aka bench, maybe an impact somehow later in the game.
Great Wakering a team that beat us not creating many chances early in the season and was done 1 nil at there place.
Having them at home knowing this game was a must win I thought we would turn them over and keep the dream alive.
In the changing before the game the gaffer stressed his views on the enfield game and it was a reflection of what not to do going into this game by takling the game to wakering and getting a result no matter what.
Everyone looked up for it. Even I did although I was sad not to be a part of the starting 11.
At the start it looked positive everyone was trying to get on the ball but I could see for the first time watching how frustrating it can be watching a team that we can easily beat show that they wanted it much more than us.
The ball wern't sticking as the pitch was bouncy so concentration was key.
We did create chances which was good and had alot of corners but didn't take em.
Undone again they scored 2 and it looked as if we were giving up like the belief wern't there like we forgot was postion we were in the league.
At the break I wanted to go in the changing room just to be part of my team and experience that half time pain of being 2nil down and yes everyone was pissed off but it was at our own doings.
The gaffer said ''we have everything to gain'' I took that as we can get back into the game easily and he also said ''start early not at the 85min'' to be fair to the gaffer he was right because from what I saw thats when we started to really give everything and it was sad because it was just to late.
Second half we were definately the better team keeping the ball, passing it quickly creating chances.
There keeper like enfields kept everything out.
Watching from the touchline I felt like telling the gaffer to put me up top to do something as Marcus was putting in some delicious ball but no one on the end of it and I was just getting worked up because I really wanted to play to help do something.
I believed today that if we get one goal early we would win this game and you could see it coming it was just a matter of time.
Creating pressure and pushing wakering we had a pen. At the time it was given there was still plenty of time to win the game.
I couldn't watch as it was that type of game. Ac stepped up and as I looked at Al and herd the pilgrims, I just knew he missed.
At that moment confidnece was low all round but there still was hope and we were pushing and pushing and credit to wakering they were still trying to kill the game off but we were still trying to get that goal to push us on.
Well it did come and the gaffer was right a little to late scotty moe volley top corner. 2-1 down 8 mins to go of normal time.
I can say we deserve a draw but our first half performances I think has been the reason as to why we have been poor in the running to thse losses, trying to get back into games after we have been starting off poorly.
Going into the changing at the end I just wanted to headbutt the walls smash up something at the fact that I couldnt help.
Can't imagine how dissapointed everyone else was feeling but we caused all of this on ourselves and if we don't pick ourselves up soon boys all of this is a fucking waste. (so so sorry for the language).
Im a passionate guy and I do get emotional people but its only because I love you all and I respect you all as my team mates and friends. I know we are better than what we are showing becuase the league table don't lie.
With the next games coming up these are more important than ever becuase we are slipping big time and I know you all know this.
We have to give this a go boys because I know that I have worked my bollocks off this season as much I can give like everyone else and I don't want us to throw this away because were going threw the motions. We can all still give much more.
We have made life abit difficult now but it still can be done it can it can it can.
I know what it feels like to lose and to win and I believe that we all want to win, we just have to start winning somehow becuase we have never lost this amount 1 after the other and at Ware it will be hard but we have to give everything boys we have to.
This time of year as the gaffer stressed out, ''it's the time were we need to come stronger than ever and be united to nick results'', I think we need to die for the cause and if your a player and you read the last report can you say that you could have done more in this game.
Its not about exuses boys it now about I gave anything and we won no matter what.
Come boys let not throw this away after such a good season come on because
The Dream Continues but we have to now reach out to it and hope that results go our way lets begin to start fighting for one another and proving to each and everyone of us that we want to get into the play-off and seek promotion.
The Dream Continues.......................................
Reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..............................