To remain some form of diginity for the right words of comfort there is none.

The spirit of tonights game I can say the the team came across to me like we were up for it and the banter about my comments were nice but to me there was a job still that had to be done as the erge of climbling out of the swamp again was a must to still push on.

As we all came out to battle my aim today was to contribute to defending and playing with the desire to win and that mentality should have been there with everyone else.

Today was a day that was full of excuses the pitch was heavy, it shouldnt have been played and once the ref had given the green light game on.

The first half was one of them starts were the desire to get stuck in the mud was a must from early doors and Romford got more than stuck in. They flew in challenges and as there bottle was full ours was empty.

Our passing was poor, movement was slow and the morale just was gone.

They scored an early goal and took the Gold away from the MUSKATEERS but we still had to keep fighting.

When the goal went in I had to urge to try and get a goal back with a few headed chances from corners but all round the park chances were not being created. I did get booked which you will not see very often but I thought the ball was there to be won and I challenge the keeper and took the yellow card.

The linemans that we have had over the last couple games seem to have no minds of there own like they dont want to make decisions of there own. Its like they wait for the refs to make up there minds and then when the linos do make choices they cant give you no answers to justify there actions alot of inconsistency but what does this sound like another excuse which sums up today performance.

Going into the changing room at half time was very frustrating to see the gafer try to gee us up and credit to him he does a good job and its these type of games that when the going gets tough the leaders and the big characters need to come out and show that there up for a war.

As the second half began I will say we did start of the better team and the momentum was there passing was better but credit to Romford who are struggling just wanted it that much more and as a team we was just not at the races.

Romford kept on pushing us back and as a team, we allowed them to do that which was sad but this season we have been poor in some games digging deep and still coming away with results and today was a major lesson as we couldnt get the fighting spirit back as Romford scored a second goal which just killed all momentum but there still was hope.

Commotion begun as Perona went to take a shot at the goal and the romford player just nicked the ball and he got a straight red which the ref had no thought to change hes mind as he said it was malious didnt get that.

Going back to why I got booked one of the romford players did the same thing that I did mine was a foot, his was an elbow both were fouls on the keeper but only I came out with a yellow and nothing for the other player inconsistency or another exucse.

As a team you still got to keep fighting especially when the chips are low and one of the twins had a great chance that I layed off to him and the keeper pulled off a good saved were Rikki follwed up and he was offside.

When we are losing I do have the urge to just want to run everywhere and try and get the ball back from the oppositions we face and try to win somehow but no matter what we did today nothing was going right.

Still trying to defend and still trying to get something out of the game Romford then scored again and that just was just the icing on the cake for a poor and disapointing performance especially at home which is disapointing because to me and I should think to everyone else these are the games that you need to win and the game that you remember when 3 points that were needed at the end of the season these games remind you that we should have won or at least taken a draw and that basically concludes.

I will say a wake up call for a ROMPING at home that I can only pray that that wont happen again any time soon.

God help Brentwood Town saturday because I can esure you that we all left the ground angry and frustrated and come saturday that all has to be put behind us as we got to keep our heads up as the games we play now wont get any easier and we have to continue to march on as the opportunity to be promoted is still there.

The Dream Continues.................